My heart is hurting. It is hard being patient. It is hard
not getting frustrated. It has been over
a month since we have heard a peep from our adoption agency. No profiles have been shown, no phone calls
made. I am having a difficult time just sitting back and waiting for something to
happen. There has been absolutely no movement at all. People keep asking me “have
you heard anything? What’s going on?” I am not sure what to say. Ethan asked Santa for his “baby sister” for
Christmas. How do I explain to him that is not a possibility? He threw coins in
the wishing well everyday while we were on vacation, and every day he told me
he was wishing for his “baby sister.” It breaks my heart. I know it is the season to be merry, and I
am. I feel extremely blessed for the amazing family I have, but it is difficult
to not feel like there is a void in our lives.
In January it will be one year since we submitted our application for
adoption. I honestly thought we would have a baby by now. It is hard not to be
disappointed. I am going to try and make a conscious decision to focus on the
positives for the rest of the year and pray that things will fall into
place. Love to you all.
Not that it is a consolation, but my cousin and her family waited nearly 2 years to get their child and they didn't have a gender preference. It is a long road but the perfect baby is out there and you'll never know when you get that call. And when you do it will be perfect.
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